by: Xenia Martinez
I've heard people talk about finding their identity in Christ, and yet they still find their worth from what they do. I will admit that I am one of those people.
There was a time in my life where I believed that if I didn’t sing, I was going to be “no one.” I love music and it’s my passion, but I thought that if I wasn’t “making it” or being successful I wasn’t doing anything of value. Then, once I started to get really involved in the music industry, I began to forget who I was. So now, I was lost with and without music. I was in the middle of a huge identity crisis and I didn’t realize it until the problems came. I started to let the things and people around me shape who I was. From the kind of music I liked, to the clothes I wore, to the way I should act in order for people to “like” me more.
I had no idea what to do anymore. If someone didn’t like a song I wrote, my world came crashing down ... it was over! When a person thought I should sing more pop, I believed they were right because I was young. And if they suddenly decided soul would fit me best, I went along with it thinking, "Yeah, maybe I do like soul." I knew this wasn’t the kind of life God intended for me, always allowing others to make decisions about the kind of person I should be. I wasn’t happy anymore and I felt like there was a battle within me … a great struggle to figure out what I truly wanted to do with my life and where I wanted to go. So I took a break from music. With it, I was destroying my life, but without it I felt worthless.
Finally, after a lot of prayer and seeking the Lord, I realized that the reason for most of our struggles, pains and problems is that our identity is built around something or someone other than Christ. We let people’s opinions have power in our lives because we are too focused on pleasing man and not God. It’s easy to forget why were placed on this Earth and it’s even easier to fall in love with the things of this world. Just like Galatians 1:10 says, if you are trying to please people, how can you be a servant of Christ?
When we finally accept that we are God’s greatest masterpiece, His finest work of art, we can live in the fullness of Christ and be truly satisfied. Now I can create music and be filled with joy knowing that the only opinion that matters is His. So, no matter what you do, remember that we’re here for only one reason, and that’s to do INCREDIBLE things for the kingdom of Christ. When you find your identity in Him, you find who you really are.